Difficult childhood in a turkish family

I was abused as a child, but only mentally. My father wouldn’t let me in the house, favoured my brother over me and called me all kinds of horrible things. He said I’m not his daughter if I don’t respect him. I’m starting to think it’s bc of the turkish culture, where men get prefered over women. All of my turkish female friends had a similar experience. That made me evolve an antipathy/dislike for turkish people/men. What helped me was seperation and talking about it. I also got bullied alot during the abuse.(mostly by boys) I guess because I was too insecure. I’m 19 now and still don’t have a boyfriend. Probably bc my head keeps thinking “If not even your father loved you, no man will”